#perfectionforweakness

Oh, there I am.⁠⠀ I thought I'd lost me for a minute.⁠⠀ @TopherKearby⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ It's three am and I just finished up the work I needed to get done tonight. I have a toddler asleep across my lap and two preteens on the end of my bed fighting to keep their eyes open as they watch @Disneyplus because I told them they could stay up as late as I do if they did the dishes tonight (yup, I'm that sick of doing dishes 😂). Our life is topsy turvy and we have no idea what we're doing anymore. lol.⁠⠀ But you know what? As much as I miss our old routine and set schedule, I just know that one day I'm going to miss these strange, slow days. 💛💛💛.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #momswhowork #momswhohustle #messy_motherhood #theeverymom #thatmomlife #workingmomlife#momsbelike #momsbehavingbadly #momstruggles #girlsnight #mommymode #motherhoodjourney #realmoms #mommylifestyle #momssupportingmoms #mamahood #mymamahood #toddlerlife #makingmemories #unicorns #girlfashion #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing PHOTO CREDIT: @antlersandlacephoto


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Just a quick PSA: It's okay to take a break from all the things that are stealing your sunshine...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Y'all there have been some really hard moments lately. And some really really good ones. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ If you're feeling all the hard right now. If it's weighing you down and stealing your breath. If the world feels so dark. I feel you, I was there multiple times this past week alone...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Take a minute. Take an hour. Take a day. Take a break...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today, I hope you...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Leave the mess. Dance in the kitchen. Cuddle on the couch. Hug and kiss your babies. Text your sisters and call your mother. Eat some bacon (yes I do believe bacon solves many of life's problems, especially if you have ice cream at the same time). Say your prayers. Express your gratitude. Remember old stories and share them with your family. Make a card for your best friend. Go put your toes in a river or stream or lake. Tell me your favorite joke). Read a good book. Sit outside and sip your favorite drink and for just a bit don't think of what needs to get done.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today, I hope you can breathe in the moment and bask in the sunshine. Even if that sunshine is emotional rather than the actual weather where you are. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today, I hope you will hold onto joy. Let go of hate. Worry a little less. Take a break from sunshine stealing worry; and love a little harder.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #ldsgenconf #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself


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How was your day?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ "It was a mess. it was a fight. It was a war with myself and the world."⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Who won?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ "I'm still standing."⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ (@topherkearby)⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ᕼEY ᖴᖇIEᑎᗪᔕ! ᗰEᑎTᗩᒪ ᕼEᗩᒪTᕼ ᑕᕼEᑕKIᑎ... ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ᕼOᗯ ᗯᗩᔕ YOᑌᖇ ᗪᗩY?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #ldsgenconf #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself


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You know that saying "Those who can't do: teach." ?⁠⠀ Well it is applicable to my current situation.😂.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ On Sunday I'm teaching a class. I don't know how to teach this subject: it's something I struggle with. ⁠⠀ I'm going to tell you a bit about it & I'd love for you to share your thoughts: any good books, podcasts, quotes, etc... that come to mind. Pretty pretty please 😘😘😘.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ So, as a man in the Netherlands sat listening to a beautiful concert being put on by a group from the states, he couldn't help but notice the gong, which was difficult & probably costly to ship over in comparison to the violin, the trumpet, or other instruments you can easily carry under your arm. Additionally the gong was only played a few times throughout the performance.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ HOWEVER he also observed that without the gong, the musical numbers wouldn't have been near as powerful or impactful...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ And here is the subject of my class:⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ "Sometimes we might feel that we are, like that gong, good enough only to play a minor part in the performance. But let me tell you that your sound is making all the difference.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ We need all instruments. Some of us learn easily & do very well in school, while others have artistic talents. Some design & build things or nurse, protect, or teach others. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ We are all needed to bring color and meaning to this world."⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ As mentioned before, this is an area I struggle with. I feel very replaceable & unneeded in this world & in my life. I feel very annoyed at myself for not being all the instruments. I deal with a constant feeling of failure: "If I could just try a little harder, work a little more, BE MORE than this gong I am: then I would make a difference in this music called life."⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ So, that's my brain for you... What are your thoughts on how to teach this class?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #ldsgenconf #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself


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Dear Alyx,⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You are a fighter.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Sometimes the pain in life brings us to our knees. Sometimes the grief steals every ounce of joy we are trying so hard to feel. And sometimes life and love weighs heavy. So so heavy.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Your inner wars & outer wars will never end. They will always be there creeping in in new forms. But you are a fighter. You can climb those mountains babe. I've seen you keep treading even when you're gasping for air. I know you can muster up strength even when nothing is left.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Because sometimes those parts of us that feel so soft, thin and breakable: they can take the shape of Strength. Of Hope. Of personal Power & Love.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You can do it. You can do hard things: The hardest of things. You were made for this life of bitter & sweet.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Please keep fighting the dark voices. The world will NEVER be a better place without you in it. You are the author of your story. A story of damsel in distress turned dragon that breathes fire, while wearing a crown. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #GIRLISEEYOU⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Love,⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Juli.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #CollateralDamage.⁠⠀ Sometimes we are just the collateral damage in someone else's war against themselves.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Recently I received 8 messages from a complete stranger telling me to kill myself & that the world would be a better place without me in it. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Hurt people hurt people. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Louder for those in the back: HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE. This seems to be fact in life. I tried not to take it personal.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Those messages came on the heels (less than 24 hours) of a family member taking her own life at only 28 years old. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ SO much dark in a season of light. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You guys I can't stop people from sending mean things to others. And doing it back won't fix anything. Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that. And hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ So this is my short message of love today. It's for each of you even though I wrote it in letter form to sweet Alyx; because if I could go back in time I would say all of this and more.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #suicide #suicideprevention #selflove #perfectionforweakness #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #riseagain


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An open letter to my younger self:⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Dear Juli, ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You wont be for everyone; and that's okay. ⁠⠀ Not everyone will love you or want you or be attracted to you; and that's okay. ⁠⠀ You won't be the smartest, or the funniest, the most talented or the prettiest; and that's okay.⁠⠀ Your energetic personality isn't one everyone will appreciate; and that's okay.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You can be the yummiest, most plump, perfectly colored, sweetest, juiciest peach in the world: but there will always be those who don't like peaches.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ And that's okay.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Don't build yourself around others' expectations. Don't dim your light because you're afraid others wont accept you. Don't hide your you for fear of lost love. Don't stop loving yourself because of someone else's inability to cherish you.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ The world is going to break you. LOVE is going to break you. ⁠⠀ There is no doubt about it.⁠⠀ So instead of running from it, hiding from it, dodging it; for fear of what you may find of yourself in the pieces,⁠⠀ race straight into the eye of your storms. Accept the changes as those storms rip you to shreds.⁠⠀ Because there is a new you waiting to be built from the pieces of the old you.⁠⠀ And spoiler alert: It's freaking fantastic.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You're a supernova. You're gonna shine. You're gonna do rad things baby-cakes! They might not be epic to anyone else, (and that's okay), but for you they will be mountains the magnitude of which you can't even imagine; and you will conquer them.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ And that's okay too.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Oh, and PS- please use moisturizer on your face daily and don't go to tanning beds!!! 😜😂😂😜.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #girliseeyou


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The grass is greener where it's watered...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ "You make divorce look so fun."⁠⠀ The first time I heard those words I was horrified. That was never my intention. I've heard it many times now & I cringe every time...⁠⠀ DIVORCE IS NOT FUN. Read it again:⁠⠀ Divorce is not fun! ⁠⠀ Not for the now single parents, ⁠⠀ not for the kids, ⁠⠀ not for anyone. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ DIVORCE was the TRIGGER for me to take more advantage of the time we have.⁠⠀ In the before, We always had fun together & I was conscious to make memories together. But not like I am now.⁠⠀ Getting to a point where I need to spend every spare second I have working--- that is what caused me to realize how lucky I am for the time I DO get to spend with my kids: & stop taking those moments for granted. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ But all this fun we're having & all this self love work I’m doing: it ALL could've been done while married. It could've been even better than it is now!!! Divorce was my wake up call to do more, to squeeze every last drop of happy out of life.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Divorce was the trigger, but IT DIDN'T HAVE TO BE.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I keep hearing of divorce after divorce & infidelity after infidelity. People looking for greener grass.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ You guys, the grass is greener where it's watered. What you focus on is what you focus on- Or in other words: If you think someone else or some other life is more amazing than what you have: then that's where your positive energy will go. The marriage, the family, the relationships you have now will only be as "green" as the effort you're putting into them.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ To be clear:⁠⠀ I don't think all who focus on their marriage can save it; There are situations that need to be walked away from.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ But to those who are feeling unfulfilled, who are looking for more excitement--- You're chasing a golden unicorn (rarest of imaginary creatures) if you think the way to find fulfillment is in divorce. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Divorce isn't something to envy. It wasn't something to celebrate: I will never jump on the "divorce is the best thing that ever happened to me!" party bus.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I AM happy now. We have a lot of fun. I find JOY in life. But my marriage ending wasn't what caused this happy- INTENTIONAL LIVING is.


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The Devil whispered in my ear⁠⠀ "You can't withstand the storm!"⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I laughed,⁠⠀ then whispered right back⁠⠀ "Oh Luci... Haven't you heard?⁠⠀ I AM THE STORM."⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Happy Halloween y'all!!!⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠Swipe for Behind the scenes with @randalynbailey and @templestarphotography plus WONDERWOMAN Kezi! #BTS⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #happyhalloween #xmen #storm #halloweencostume #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyourbestself⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Thank you @templestarphotography for showing us behind the scenes your awesome photos today. We had a blast and I love the pictures!


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strong but exhausted.⁠⠀ happy but wary.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Just a thought tonight about bright sunny happiness and dark depressing painfulness:⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Some days (and sometimes they're moments not days)--- leave you with a warm fuzzy feeling inside. THOSE are the days/the moments to write down. Create a journal, a space for sunny happy moments to be frozen in time forever. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Here's why I think it's so important:⁠⠀ Whenever I've been in a dark place, my mind tricks me into thinking all days have been like this or all days will be like this. My memories are covered with an ugly dull film. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ But what if on those not so great days I have something I can flip back through and remember why I love life?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Pictures would work too. Writing just seems to be my thing. It's how I work through pain and heaviness. I've spent 18 months getting vulnerable and writing through my fears. Maybe now I'll even things out with a reminder that you have to make it through the darkness to feel the light...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today the dog ate something he shouldn't have and had diarrhea all over the house. Last night I only slept 30 minutes because a toddler woke up with a fever right as I was climbing into bed and never went back to sleep til her siblings woke up to get ready for school. I have soooo much work to get done and so many goals I want to start on but don't have the time for...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ But you know what? Today was a good day.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I felt satisfied inside.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today I ate a REALLY good candy bar with my lunch 😂. This afternoon we roller skated in the house. Tonight we ate leftovers for dinners and they were only "so-so" but we made up for it with cookies after dinner! The night was finished by coloring shrinky-dink art. I went searching for markers and ended up hiding just out of sight as I listened to little voices make really weird jokes and laugh hysterically about them for a solid ten minutes. Tonight my youngest fell asleep patting my cheek and pretending to be my mommy and I felt like maybe I'm doing an okay job because she was the cutest sweetest mommy ever...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Today mine was a sunshine day. What about yours? Do you need a hug? Do you have a bright moment to remember??⁠⠀


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Mirror mirror⁠ on the wall,⁠ I'll always get up⁠ after I fall.⁠ And whether I run, walk,⁠ fly or crawl;⁠ I'll set my goals high ⁠ and achieve them all!⁠ -unknown⁠ ⁠ #Vulnerability Post 90- #HappyFear⁠ ⁠ The other night as I was crawling into bed I had the thought "I feel happy."⁠ ⁠ It was such a weird realization to have in the middle the night when I was bone tired, worked ragged, much had gone wrong that day and I could barely hold my eyes open; but it was a truth that hit with intensity. ⁠ ⁠ I thought "I feel happy.” ⁠ Unfortunately I followed that up with "Oh great, what bad thing is gonna happen next?!"⁠ ⁠ 𝐃𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐝𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠: 𝒂𝒔 𝒂 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆𝒕𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔?⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ☀️🍑⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ PS- the quote at the beginning of this post has nothing to do with this post, but I love it so so much and wanted to share. if you have quotes you've heard and instant loved then please share!!!⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ ⁠ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #ldsgenconf #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself#momswhowork


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What would you do if you KNEW you wouldn't fail?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I read that question on a friend's feed recently and it hit home. I have so many ideas, so many things I want to do, ways I want to make a difference... But I'm doing nothing with them. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Fear of failure, imposter syndrome, Not good enough... These are my demons. These are the constant voices I am fighting in my head. These are my roadblocks. They are mental. Maybe other obstacles would come up too, but I'm the queen of tackling real obstacles. It's my mental ones that paralyze me and leave me not trying.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ What would I do if I knew I wouldn't fail?⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ BIG SCALE:⁠⠀ I'd solve world hunger problems: people shouldn't have to go to bed hungry when there is so much in this world. Too much Waste.⁠⠀ I would destroy sex trade and human trafficking,⁠⠀ and, I'd put an end to child abuse.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Personal and on the "probably possible" scale:⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ *I'd start a strength retreat for mamas that have been through betrayal trauma. Intensive therapy classes, adventures, great food, practical activities (like learning how to change a tire 😂🙋🏼‍♀️), yoga and other physical activities. Etc... So many ideas.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ *I'd finish my books.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ *I'd have a food show. I love people, I love getting in front of the camera, I love putting my personality out there and watching people not know what to do with me 😂😂😂. and I love food....⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ *I'd go travel the world with my kids. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ These are just a few of mine. I made a list the other night of things I want badly that my mental blocks are stopping me from doing or working toward: and it was long. Too long. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I will fail, it's inevitable. Why do I fear it so much though? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Anyway, I put it out there to you now:⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ What would you do if you KNEW you wouldn't fail?⁠⠀


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Happy Sunday! What's the best proposal story you've ever heard? How did you or your spouse propose? Let's hear it!!⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ So the other night I went to dinner at a restaurant I have waited 9, almost 10 years to go to and it did not disappoint.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I will tell you more about it later. Right now though I'll tell you what happened halfway through the dinner. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I was between courses and had noticed a man and a woman at a table across from ours. The woman was clearly in love with the man and smiled constantly. I couldn't see the man's face so I can't tell you if he was all smiles too or not. What I did see was that his hands were shaking like crazy as he pulled a ring from his jacket pocket and got down on one knee. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ She said yes.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I had butterflies in my stomach on their behalf (clearly I'm still a romantic at the core!), as I simultaneously had the thought:⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ "Enjoy those smiles while they last! Wonder how long it'll be until one of them thinks the grass could be greener elsewhere?"⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ When did I become so jaded y'all? ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Sad.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ But screw that! Let's pretend there are happily ever after's and a lot of them have a ring and a bended knee in one chapter or another...⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ Tell me those chapters! I wanna hear all the cute and funny and normal and imagined and anything else proposal stories!!!⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #proposal #shesaidyes #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself


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⠀⁠⠀ #Vulnerability 39 repost one year to the date- #LivingInTheMoment⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ I once tried to go skinny dipping at 3AM all by my lonesome...⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ It was my last year before turning thirty. My life had been turned upside down. I had lost my hearing. My past wasn't what I thought it was & my future was no longer in stone or a happy thought.⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ We were in Tyler Texas with a large group of friends for a birthday. We were all staying at a cabin on a lake. I spent alot of that trip feeling unhappy. I was struggling to be in the moment; I had been hurt badly with a discovery just before leaving on that trip & was still trying to process it.⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ I had wanted to jump off the boathouse into the lake, but when everyone else was doing that activity I was hiding in the cabin crying.⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ So, on our last night staying there, as I laid awake in the middle of the night, I thought to myself:⠀⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ "Why not?!"⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ So I did. I climbed out of bed by myself. I went out there and climbed on top of the boathouse by myself. And then I thought:⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ "Well hey! I'm already jumping off a roof in the middle of the night, why not make it extra crazy & do it naked?!" 😂⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ Up to this point in my life I'd always been #spontaneous, but never #wild.⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ So I stripped down, I prepared to leap, and then... I heard some men talking 🤦🏼‍♀️. Nighttime fishermen.⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ I turned chicken, hit the deck, army crawled back to my swimsuit. I put the suit back on, then RAN, and jumped!⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ It was the most exhilarating moment. Not necessarily because of the height or the dark, but because I did it for me. I did it for the girl I'd lost. I did it for the girl I wanted to become. I was recognizing her. I was recognizing me.⠀⁠⠀ ⠀⁠⠀ I've been trying since that time to enjoy the moments. Sometimes I #fail, sometimes I succeed.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ It doesn't have to be big or grand. It doesn't have to be wild or spontaneous. Just something that makes you feel happy for a moment. What will you do to live your best life this week? Today??!!⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle


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I'm not your summer house;⁠⠀ nor am I,⁠⠀ your winter, fall, or spring. ⁠⠀ I am not a house at all.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ there is nothing temporary ⁠⠀ about this heart of mine.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ I am a home.⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ (-@MadalinaComan)⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ♥ What does the word “HOME” mean to you? ♥⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #summerstyle #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself


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Just dancing through life this morning. Music is my love language! Hit me up with all your favorite I will survive, I'm getting stronger, life is lovely, girl power, etc... songs!⠀ ⠀ 🖤🖤🖤😘⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #instafashion #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #ldsmama #beachstyle #fitness #fitnessgirl #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself


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🖤⠀ Are ⠀ you really choosing ⠀ alone time⠀ or are⠀ you in hiding because ⠀ you are afraid⠀ of real intimacy?⠀ (@maryamhasnaa)⠀ ⠀ I'm not scared of the butterflies⠀ or the memories.⠀ I'm scared of being disappointed⠀ and betrayed.⠀ I'm scared of falling in love⠀ only to learn I was ⠀ the only one who fell.⠀ ⠀ 🖤⠀ ⠀ #Vulnerability Post 89- #FallAgain⠀ ⠀ Dear Juli,⠀ ⠀ Last night there was sadness and bitter anger taking over your heart. you screamed into a pillow and fell asleep with tears still flowing. It's been awhile since you felt that low, but the grief is still there and sometimes it is raw and painful, scraping you out from the inside.⠀ ⠀ I'm sorry. ⠀ ⠀ Now that the tears are gone and you can think again, I want to remind you that there is more to life than heartbreak and loss. ⠀ ⠀ There are beaches to dance on with flirty waves kissing your toes. There are microphones awaiting your hand, moments for you to close your eyes, throw your head back and sing; there are karaoke songs to butcher. There are freshly cleaned sheets and rainy morning snuggles. There are macarons at cafes on Paris street corners and gelato in Italy. There are stars to camp under. There are bubble baths and silly books that give you schoolgirl butterflies! There are convertibles to drive with your hair down. There are big adventures and little explorations waiting in far off countries for you. There are waterfalls to find. There is joy to give in to. And somewhere, somewhere there is a boy who will look at you one day like you are every promise worth making, and keeping; like you are every beat of his kind heart and the breath that fills his soul; like you are his only and his always. That look will be truth and action, He will be as sure about you as you are about him. And it probably won't be who you hoped it would be. But Juli, you've felt so unwantable and completely worthless. That's not a truth tho: You are worth someone who chooses you every day. Know it! Feel it.⠀ ⠀ Dear Juli, there is more to life than broken. For now wear the broken with a smile. But understand that this is the beginning as much as it is the end. ⠀ ⠀ don't forget.⠀ 🖤


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@WaltDisneyWorld is in the books as a super fun trip! we did it! It was SOOOO fun. ⠀⠀ Sorry, I have to say this again... You guys 😬, I did it! There were a few hiccups, but overall it went swimmingly. I can do this... 🤩😄💛.⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Where should we go next y'all???! Tag me your favorite resorts! We loved @encoreresort and would def go back! Tell me your favorite locations! Share all 💛💛💛. This is going to be a year of travel with my kids. I can do this adult thing!!! I can do this!⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ PS- thanks y'all for the encouragement 😘😘😘.⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #divorce #divorcetherapy #selfesteem #perfectionforweakness #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself⠀⠀ #summerstyle #currentlywearing #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #igstyleblogger #instastyleblogger #instafashion #instafashionkids #whatiwore #whatimwearing #whatimwearingtoday #Disneymmc #disneypartner collab #instadisney #disneyfamily


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RECIPE POST!!!⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Y'all have I got a treat for you today! keep reading...⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Recipe for Delicious Chubby Toddler Kisses:⠀⠀ 1 Amazing Resort (ie: @EncoreResort)⠀⠀ 1 Adorable Toddler (Mine is taken!!)⠀⠀ Sunshine (Thank you Florida!)⠀⠀ Ice Cream (I suggest phish food! 😜)⠀⠀ Funny fart jokes (What is invisible and smells like carrots? A rabbit fart.)⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Day one of vacation has been a success! This has been delightful. The weather is perfect, our house is amazing, and the people: they're golden! ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Thanks y'all! @rachaelburgessmusic @beingsummershores @joyfullygreen @Camille_Waddingham best vacation ladies ever!!!⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ #summerstyle #currentlywearing #ootd #momlife #momstyle #momfashion #momfashionblogger #igstyle #igstyleblogger #instastyleblogger #instafashion #instafashionkids #wiw #whatiwore #whatimwearing #whatimwearingtoday⠀⠀ #Beautyforashes #healingforhurt #vulnerability #perfectionforweakness #selflove #selflovejourney #betrayaltrauma #riseagain #phoenixrising #realandraw #beyou #beyourbestself #fitmom 📸: @camille.waddinghamphotography 👙: @shabbyapple


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